Well it is back.
I know how much everyone missed my posts of self discovery and sometimes huge blunders and so I just had to bring it back.
Actually I missed taking responsibility for what I did to my body and put in it.
Taking time off for the holidays and many other crazy things left me feeling really crappy about myself.
So here we are in a New Year!
Do I start the year sad that I seemed to have failed at last years goals, NO!!!
My weigh in is 314.4lbs.
That means that even through everything I managed to still keep 12 pounds off and that is good.
I am not a failure only a beginner.
I am learning how to treat myself with the same respect I treat other with... to feel like I deserve that time.
I have much to learn and many more hurdles to jump before I will find me the way I see me but I can do it.
I survived a lot last year and that just makes me stronger for this year... or so goes the pep talk I give myself every morning.
I need to be forgiving of my mistakes because if I didn't make any I would be translated by now.
I have also decided that I need to teach myself habits that will stick.
So instead of one big resolution that I will fail by the end of the year I have 3 mini goals for each month that I will work on the will be habits by the time the month is over.
It will be little things that when all added up at the end of the year will make me the more perfect me I want to be.
Two will be weight loss related and one will be household related.
This will make me be able to show on the outside what I am feeling on the inside.
So here are my goals for this month:
1. Journal my food and water everyday working towards getting all 8 glasses in.
2. do a 10 minute workout video everyday and walk a mile 5 times a week.
3. declutter twice a day for 15 minutes getting rid of all the extras by giving away, recycling, or just tossing in the trash.
I am told I am carrying a lot of water weight and after a ton of research into how to get rid of it I have decided that I will try the drinking the right amount of water.
Apparently not drinking enough can actually cause your body to retain it more..
Well I thought I was drinking enough but when I actually thought about it most days I just forgot and grabbed what ever was easiest in the fridge. So I took a old 2 litre pop bottle and wrote all over it "Mom's Water" and my goal is to empty that everyday.. so hence the keeping track of food and water.
I have join a site called SparkPeople.
If you recall I had tried weight watcher and Biggest loser and liked the biggest loser the best BUT
I had to cancel my membership because we just didn't have the money to keep it going.
Well SparkPeople is a lot like Biggest Loser but FREE.
My friend Lynn told me about because she uses it and I thought why not.
I have found support groups like a I had before and I have the tools I need to make this work.
Well it helps do my tracking but it also has 110 exercise videos to choice from.
This gives me variety and saves money on trying to find the right DVD or heading to the gym.. which with no money I can't do anyway until the free gym is a little less snow and rain covered.
So that helps me out with goal 2
and goal 3 well after 6 years of living in this house with min 5 kids and a lot of extra people we have no shortage of things around here and I am feeling claustrophobic so taking a page from FlyLadies book I figure two 15 min go all out sessions each day with whatever place is dragging me down the most that day means that soon I will have a clutter free home and a good habit for keeping it that way. This will give me more time to do other things and free up some of my precious mind space because it won't be taken up with thinking about how that pile of junk the kids keep adding to on the dishwasher counter really needs to be cleared, etc.
So there you have it a positive out look on what I have gone through and positive steps towards a healthier 2012 :)
What had you set for yourself this year?
