Monday, November 1, 2010

To those selfish people in my life..

..You win. I am broken. You have taken the last of me. My trust in others is gone and there is nothing left for any of you so can you please just leave me and my family alone now. My kids deserve better than to spend their lives dealing with this crap and having others treat them this way. They will have better. Do yourselves a favor and stop blaming the world, stop blaming others, stop trying to find ways to get what you want no matter who gets hurt. You will only be lonely in the end. You will lose everything and nobody deserves that, nobody. So seek help, find peace, do what you need but know that I am no longer here for you as there is nothing I have left to give you. Any strength I have left will go to making sure my kids never get treated this way or feel this way because they will be strong enough not to let people like you use them. They will know better than I did. They will live Happy lives and through that I too will be happy again. For now I mourn the loss of those I love and once trusted. I truly hope my kids never really understand the pain you have caused me over the years.

8 comments:

Jenn said...
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Jenn said...

Dearest Dyanne...

First, and foremost, I LOVE YOU!

Second, I hope that they actually get the point. One day, maybe? It is sad to think that, like you said, they end up all alone yet STILL not get it. You are ridiculously strong, and I think your kids are extremely lucky to have you. Although this post makes me sad :,( it truly shows how wonderful a person you are. It truly shows how you are better than all those mentioned around you, because you truly know how to put others before yourself. This is why you will always be surrounded by people who genuinely care and love you!

The last laugh will be on them, but you will be too busy loving and experiencing life to notice, or care.

<3

Terisa's Space said...

I am so sorry you have had to go thru this, I am crying and wish with all my heart that this had not been something you ever had to experience. Know that I love you and the kids and hope all is well after this. You are a special person and deserve so much better than you have been getting lately. You tried to do your best in an ugly situation and tried to be the peacemaker. I love that you tried and know that I think you are not at fault in any way for the outcome. You are the best and I love you all the more for your efforts. Give your kids a hug and make it a good day for yourself. It will all be better now.

LiveLaughLove and have an opinion said...

I am so sorry for your pain Dyanne, you truly did what you thought would be best for both parties in the situation and I know you tried with all your heart because that is who I have come to know you are.... what is hard is all your efforts have gone to waste... and it is not being selfish to want a happy family and a happy ending for all involved.. Know that you are loved so much by so many,

hugs :)

Candi said...

Dyanne:

I truly feel for you and your pain. The feeling of betrayal is horrible. I am sending you majorily big hugs and will give you one in person next time i see you! You are right you need to cut off/out the things you have no control over; they need to fix for themselves. It is now time you tok care of you and those beautiful 6 kids of yours!!! You need to get your health back on track so you can be there for the kids and your husband. I understand; it is sometimes very painful to cut the strings BUT sometimes you just have, too for your own self. I am here for you.

Love,
Candi

SongbirdMama said...

Dyanne;

I'm not really sure what has transpired, and I don't really need to. All I know is that for as long as I've known you, you have been a wonderful, happy, vibrant young woman. We haven't always been close since the old college days, but I still consider you a friend. And I think your husband and children are very lucky to have such a strong and beautiful woman for a wife and mother.

Those who have caused you this heartache don't deserve the energy of your tears. I love you. Your friends and family love you, and God loves you.

Anonymous said...

Dyanne,
Your post broke my heart. So sorry you and your family have had to go through this. Stick to your conviction. You and yours deserve better than that. Love you lots. Aunt Nadyne

Anna said...

My Dear Carmen. I have been horrified that your Mom & Bill are still using you to get what they want, and to hurt each other. WALK AWAY. NO RUN.I once had to do that with my Mother many years ago, and it was the hardest thing that I had to do. We never spoke for two years. We now have a great Mother Daughter relationship.Don't feel guilty,they are supposed to be grown-ups, and they need to get professional help. You need to think of YOUR FAMILY FIRST,and not worry about their problems. Besides they should never have involved you and the family. I read that your Mother was crying because of what is going on, well if she was truely sorry she would never have involved you again in their troubles. If you wwould like to talk call us.403- 272-2123